These past few weeks have been interesting ones on the baby front (thank you to everyone who sent me emails checking on our status). I’ve been dutifully writing down my cycles, complete with little notes about how I’ve been feeling and when I was feeling it. I’ve been doing all of this so that I’d be in tune with my body. So that when “it” happened, I would just know.
A week ago, I was getting ready for work when I noticed some spotting. (Disclaimer: Let me apologize up front for the men reading this. My only hope is that you have wives or girlfriends and are conditioned to this kind of talk. If you’re not, just think of it as a “learning experience.” Or, you can always go check out something a little safer like one of my travel posts and just come back tomorrow. ) Seeing as how it was a week before my period was to start, I was a little curious. This spotting came with cramps that lasted for a few days.
And I may have just been imagining it, but I swear that along with the cramps and premature spotting I was feeling emotional mood swings too. Just ask my husband! It was odd really, things that normally don’t bother me suddenly set my teeth on edge. And just as quickly as my temper flared, those feelings would go away, leaving me bewildered and wondering if I was finally losing it. And on top of this, I found myself nauseous and very, very tired.
So I began doing some research to see if this could be it, if I was finally pregnant. When I turned to Google for answers, I found that these symptoms are often associated with implantation, which is when the fertilized egg plants itself in the uterus. I also found several sites where women wrote about their experiences and told how they found out that they were with child. And you know what? It sounded exactly like what I was experiencing! I never spot prematurely and why else would I have cramps a week before my period? I just knew I was pregnant!
I called my mom and my sister and told them what I was thinking. I warned them not to get excited because I wasn’t sure yet. But then I told them that I just felt…different. I began mentally rearranging the spare bedroom and thinking about where we’d move the cat’s litter box. I did some casual searches online for maternity clothes just to see what kind of selection was available. I should probably be embarrassed to admit this, but I even stuck a pillow under my shirt to see what I would look like.
And then I woke up this morning and found that I have my period.
I tested just to be sure and yes, it was negative. Gone were the daydreams about being with child and in their place is confusion and a lack of understanding. I thought I knew my body and I thought I could read the signs. But I guess I still have a lot to learn.
It’s not all bad though. I’m not devastated because this experience made me realize that I still have a lot to do before we get pregnant. Just little things like clean out the closet in the spare bedroom and work on projects that I’d like to have finished before my free time is gone. It motivated me to continue taking good care of myself too, which includes working out more regularly. So yes, it’s disappointing, but it’s not entirely a bad thing.
Have you ever thought you were pregnant only to find out you weren’t? Or, how did you know you were pregnant, what symptoms were you having?
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Just a couple weeks ago I had kind of a scare. My body is usually like clockwork…I always start on the same day within a window of hours. This last time I was 2 full days late. I was kind of scared, but finally got what I was looking for. Hang in there 
rather than waiting and voila. Babies.
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