I’m trying hard not to make this site all about the baby. The problem is, there’s not really much else going on right now and this whole pregnancy thing is taking most of my focus as of late. I will say this, though: the past two days have been vomit-free in our house and I couldn’t be happier! I’m hoping the morning sickness has officially gone so that I can start to really enjoy the “being with child” experience.
Part of enjoying it, I guess, is coming to terms with the fact that in roughly six months, I’ll actually be giving birth. As in pushing a little person out of me. I won’t lie to you – that scares me. A lot. I think I’m in the denial stage right now. I’ll turn shows like TLC ‘s “A Baby Story” just to see the birth scene. But then I’ll start to feel queasy and sweat will break out on my forehead and I’ll have to turn the channel.
I realize that I can’t hide forever of course. So I’ve decided to face my fear and start making a plan, a birthing plan to be exact. I went to the store last night and bought a book titled “Your Birth Plan” (appropriately named, don’t you think?). I’m hoping it will help point me in the right direction and so I can figure out what I need to do to get ready.
Part of getting ready is finding the right doctor, one who will be a good fit for me. So far, I have been visiting with an OB-GYN that was referred to me by a friend. He’s a great doctor; he’s been delivering babies for about 30 years and he definitely knows his stuff. The problem is, at least for me, is that he’s really laid back. And I am, well, not so much. I have tons of questions and concerns and he usually pats me on the knee and says don’t worry, it’s fine, you’re normal. While it’s reassuring that he’s not worried about the things that normally scare me to death, I wonder if I wouldn’t be better off with a doctor who will lay it all out for me.
Then there’s the language issue. He’s French, which in and of itself is very cool. But his English is heavily accented and it is not easy to understand everything he says. When you’re trying to get info about what’s going on with your body and your baby, the last thing you want is a communication gap.
That being said, he has a fantastic bedside manner and is very gentle. He also calls me at night to check on me and to answer questions, which, from what I gather, is pretty rare. So now I’m torn – do I try to find a doctor who I can understand a little better and one who “gets” me? Or do I stay with him, the doctor who may be difficult to communicate with but who has years of experience and who will take the time to call me at home?
I think that once I figure out the doctor issue, I’ll be able to move on to the big stuff, like how to actually give birth. Until then, this denial thing isn’t too bad.
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