walk with me

With so much going on in our day-to-day lives, I rarely give thought to the “what used to be’s” or the “what could have been’s”.  Which is a shame, really, because when I do, I’m always grateful for the “here and nows.”

I couldn’t stop myself yesterday, though, as I was cleaning out some photos from my computer.  Oh – and before you tell me how important it is that I shouldn’t delete my photos and to make sure that I back them up, let me assure you that I have not one, not two, but three copies of my photos.  What can I say, it’s the photographer in me.

Moving on… I was going through a folder titled “Tabitha.”  Simple.  To the point.  Descriptive.  Yet for some reason, I was surprised when I came across a picture of me.  Well, a picture of me holding Henry.  And in that picture, Henry was days old and I was trying desperately to get him to drink my milk since he refused to nurse (foreshadowing of events to come perhaps?) by “finger feeding” him.

My heart melted a little looking at that picture.  It’s been so long since I’ve viewed his baby pictures and he seems so incredibly big to me now, that it literally took my breath away.

It’s funny how pictures will do that – take you on a walk down memory lane.  For example, in that same folder I had pictures of me
pre-pregnancy.  I even have them in a sub-folder titled Skinny pictures.  Man, I miss those skinny days.  In fact, this walk down memory lane could have easily taken a turn into depressing territory if I hadn’t stumbled across this picture:

And this one:

Looking past the fact that I’m no longer skinny, these pictures remind me that I have a sweet little boy who is growing up before my very eyes.  They help me to remember that time is fleeting and that it’s important to enjoy the here and now and not dwell on the inconsequential things like wishing I was skinnier.   It’s reminded me once again that I have a full and busy life filled with people I love and that I spend my time doing what I love.

A walk down memory lane will do that.